I told you to be patient.

I would like to say that I am ok with everything. And that I am completely and utterly happy. And that everything is perfect and just the way I want it to be.

But I would be lying to myself.

I honestly expected this.

I often do lie to myself. And am in denial of the outcomes that I know are bound to happen.

Because I am living in the moment. And I do what I want right when I want to do it. Sometimes I feel like it's ok to lie to yourself. But I suppose I'll have to bear the consequences that I knew were coming.