Selfish Conspiracy Against the Sun.

I'll creep up in the late afternoon

Surreptitiously through sand dunes

So you'll be shaken

When I reach high and grab you.

Timing is critical.

It's crucial that I pick the perfect day,

When you're at your best.

I prefer you most that way.

I'll wear camouflage.

I'll swerve quick through the trees,

Blending in with the people,

I'll know you'll be by the sea.

That's right where I want you

Where I feel we both belong,

Where our colors show best

And our hearts are singing their greatest song.

I'm sorry to betray you

Since you've done me no harm,

Except for the redness

You've left a time or two upon my arm.

But I've just got to have you

Your powers make me strong.

If only I could have just a piece of you

To put inside my jar to bring along.

In 30 Seconds We'll Be Ninety.

Lately, I've been writing a lot. Long paragraphs, thoughtful words. And then I find myself deleting it all and closing out the window. Something about what I've had to say lately just isn't really me. I would feel dishonest posting it.

This is the first thing I've written in a while that feels right and true and honest.

Your voice and it's simplicity,

Your eyes and their sincerity.

The way you take the time to speak with me

And close your lids to picture what I see.

Our laughs, out loud; hysterically.

Your spoken words said honestly.

The way we whisper "just let it be."

And answer back ecstatically.

When this earth is orbiting crazily,

I look to you, you look to me.

No one has ever made me feel as free

As your heart beating so rapidly.

When we're in the sea

Home free

Our breath in and out so clearly,

Our ocean waves so viciously

Attack our bodies, somehow lovingly

Embracing us, so motherly.

Swallowing us wholly.

Until this space around us so openly

Provides us with utmost clarity.

Which can remove all doubt, dangerously.

Yet replace our Autumn motives, thankfully.

And we're just moving right now, daily

You there, and here me

Our minds creating connectivity.

Thoughts sparking simultaneously.

Strange happenings, unintentionally.

You told me so non-challantly

That in 30 seconds we'll be ninety.

This time is passing too hastily,

But by slowing it we would mistakingly

Be altering our lives, our mortality.

We've got to keep up, running hurriedly

You in my face, our backs to the sea.

I've never trusted someone so whole heartedly.

And said words out loud so bluntly

But meant them oh so sharply.

1997.

I used to eat grass and dirt

And played pretend

And stained my shirt.

And I didn't care

When something got lost

Because I was too busy observing

All the dew and the frost.

And I always ran with bare feet

In the neighbor's backyard

And all through the the street.

Then when the rain came down

There were no umbrellas

No complaining, no frowns

but Excitement

With the thunder claps

and hiding in a cave of sheets

Drawing our own treasure maps.

I didn't need something special

just to have a good time

Acting like a lunatic

wasn't such a crime.

I wasn't blowing smoke

To keep from going insane

It was just me.

Just me and my brain.

And it wasn't so clear to me

That those years ago

I was more free.

More free then, I suppose

I ever again will be.

Haikus to 99 degrees.

Naked body thinks

It is too hot for clothing

Even in the night.

This warmth is blissful

Please stay this way forever

I despise the cold.

This sunlight beaming

On my body and my soul

Bursting everywhere.

Submission.

You're pushing too hard

Right into my brain.

Squeezing so you fit into every corner.

Every paper,

in the files,

in the boxes,

that hold my memories.

And I'm pushing you out.

Real hard.

Im in a frenzy of frustration.

But you're strong. Real tough.

Must be all those weights you've been lifting.

Boxes you've been moving.

And rearranging

Inside my spent head.

As much as I fight you-

I've gotten used to your cacophonous company.

Rapt.

Seeing you there,
Pensive in stance-
I just want to know you,
Can't we just dance?
But your thoughts have you glued,
Your eyes in a trance
Your hair all a mess
And your hands in your pants.

And I wanted to tell you,
I just want you to know;
You're doin' just fine
You are not below
But high on this land
And as well in your mind.
I know why you're searching
What you're hoping to find.

But I dont understand
I cannot see
Why we are binded,
Why cant we be free?
And I know that it's quite hard
To sometimes perceive
What it really might be
That this time may conceive.
And for myself, and for me
It's most hard to believe
In all of this future
Moving swift with the breeze.