Beach Runs.

Since I have been home I've been running a lot. I miss running like I did in the summer.
There's just something about it. Running outside in the brisk air. Especially when you build your endurance and you can just run for miles. Its the best.
The beach has been beautiful lately. Such nice sunsets. I never really appreciated this place until I chose to leave it for Portland.

Im loving home, but Im ready to go back.

winter.

Well it is finally getting overcaste in Ventura. Which I dont really like, but i guess it gives a more wintery feel.
Buena Alumni game was wayyy more fun than I thought it was going to be. I think Im going to join the intermural water polo team at school...i miss it.
Last night jaccuzzi with court, rach, sam, bon...good to catch up with them.
Tomorrow staff holiday party for the VAC ATTACK..holler
Wednesday. Venice.
Cannot wait.

Missing portland. But loving home.




Loveeee this song. Makes me miss summer.

I like it when the sun shines

directly on my body.
I am weird.
I have made two batches of mexican wedding cookies. And they are dank.
I will make you some when you come home and wrap them prettily and put them on your front porch.
I also swam. And tanned my body slightly. But the end of three weeks, I will be black again.
Natures Grill's portabello mushroom sandwich and I were reunited today. Kyle Lansden came along. And I randomly saw Cate Russell. Small world. I love Ventura.
Especially downtown Ventura.
Tomorrow I will sleep. And clean. And workout. And see my beautiful friends.

Ps. Friday I am going to a Hanukah party at my grandmother's house. pahahaha. Love.

home.

I am now back home for the next three weeks.
Weird.
It almost feels like I havent been gone that long. Nothing's changed that much.
It has been so good to see my friends though. And talk and laugh like old times.
And to sleep in my bed.
And to not have to worry about school or anything.
Although, I have a feeling that by the end of this three weeks I'll be more than ready to go back to living on my own in Portland.

btw. Glee this week was so good. Just watched it online. LOVED.
As corny as that show is, it still gives me goosebumps every episode.

traveling.

In 10 hours i will be on a plane.

flying home

and leaving portland.

And this is all just so bitter sweet.

I have grown a deep love for my friends here. And knowing that Im not gonna see them for three weeks is hard and makes me wanna cryyy!

But at the same time I am SO beyond excited to see my friends back at home. I miss them more than they could know.

Tonight I danced a little and ate a lot. With people that I love so so much.

New things will begin soon.

contemplation.

It's weird that something that should make you feel good

Doesnt really do much for you.

Actually it kind of does the opposite.

And makes you feel bad

About yourself.

BUT, I am going home tomorrow. And I definitely feel good about that :)

happiness :)

Finally feeling good.

Just finished my Sociology final. I think I did well. Hopefully.

I still have a paper to write. Gonna bust that shit out.

Life feels good.

Good friends and food and conversation and music.

I am soakin' in up :)

Cant wait to go home to I!! And watch Lost and eat and chat and have funnn!

And of course to see Dal, Sam, Ky, Bon, and EVERYONE.

And my real true love, the ocean.

The anticipation is killing me!

Sometimes.

I get scared that there isnt enough time.

To do the things I want to do.

And be the person that I want to be.

And meet the people I want to meet.

And see the things I want to see.

And feel the things I want to feel.

I wish time could slow. Just for a little while.

I want.

To run.

and run and run and run.

It's freeing.

I also want it to be Thursday. When all my work will be over with. And I will be packing for home. And having a good time because finals will be OVER.

"Cause if you're touring my mind, you'll get lost every time."

what i have resorted to in the computer lab.

When we should be being productive and writing our damn papers. 294 words out of 1500 done = 1/5 of the way finished. In the past hour. This is no good.

5 days.

Until I go home. Lets rejoice. I am so excited to see all of my lovaaassss!!!

This week is hellacious.

Anthro final today = blehhhhasdlkaejalskdfj. Whatever. Glad its over.

Tomorrow = Study my arse off. And write an 8 page paper. Superb.

Wednesday = Sociology final. Sad that class is going to be over.

Thursday, Friday = Partayyyyyyyy

Saturday = flyyyyyy home :)

From this weekend. Korey's Christmas party. I will miss these lovely ladies when I go home :(

simply put.

sleeping to dream.

Sometimes its funny when someone that you've been thinking about just decides to show up in your life coincidentally.

I think things happen for a reason. I dont really believe in coincidences, I dont think.

And I dont like it when people are scared. Life is short. So why would you care so much about what people, that you dont even like, think about you? You shouldn't be scared of screwing things up. I believe we should do what we want, and what we feel we need to do. Without hesitation.

Things I like that I find on the internet :)

On my mind.

I've had a lot on my mind these days.

• school/finals
• friends
• home
• job
• the future
• my health
• boys

I need a vacation. Haha, which is why I am looking forward so much to going home. I really do miss it.

The song "Stream of Consciousness" by Still Time is amazing right now.

My room mate just made me mac n cheese. We are now friends :)

I was so in the zone today working out. Eliptical for 30 minutes straight. Holler.

I have peed a total of 7 times in the last hour. Something is wrong with me! I didn't even drink that much tea today! Oye.

Yesterday when watching the Civil War football game (Ducks vs. Beavers) I accidentally called a "chest bump" and chest pump.

Also, I wrote an incredibly depressing haiku for my sustainability class:

The leaves are dying

The animals are crying

People are lying

Tomorrow Korey is having a "Ho-Ho-Ho Christmas Party" and that should be just grand

Cant wait. For any of it. Love love love.

ps.(I want winter to be over because I am done being cold. Send the sunshine my way please)

study time.

I got my tea. I got my books. I got my music. I am now motivated.

End of Fall.

So it's the end of the fall term. Seriously cannot believe it. For your entertainment, here are some of the highlights....

Korey's pre-christmas christmas party in her new apartment :)

Deciding to explore the frat house. Not the brightest idea.
Exploring new territories. Best idea we've ever had. Also...the night Erica discovered Mitch.
Night of max rides, peeing behind dumpsters, good music, and pita pit.
Halloween Eve Night #1

Halloween Night #2 in Eugene. Helloooo Comfort Inn.

Australian aborigines in a penthouse in Eugene.
The night me and Korey stole the street sign.
The night of not so great decisions for all.
A.S.S. - Anti-Sorority Sorority.

Corvallis.

Fun times at Korey's
The first time we were all united down by the water front.
Me and Erica obtaining our favorite t-shirts everrr.
80's Dance.

So much fun and so many more memories and good times to come! Cant wait lovaaasss!

sister.

I miss mine. I really do. I miss laughing with you. And teasing you. And playing games and watching movies and riding bikes and chasing each other around the house and acting like fools together. Know that I love you.
"You could make the sun go down just by walkin away."

as;ldgkhaerlgjhgahhhhhhh!

Seriously. So pissed.
Ya know, why cant things just sometimes work out the way they're supposed to.
Why does everything have to be so hard and complicated and stupid.
So done.
Done
Done
Done
Done
I want to go home. and sleep in my bed. where i dont hear the sound of sirens and dumpsters in the middle of the night. and i dont get woken up 3 times a night by the fucking cat living in my dorm room.
I mean, why would that be considered a good idea to have a cat in this tiny space that you share with someone else?
I am sick
And have finals.
And no effing job.
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!

I miss home. Im tired.

really immune system?

Of all times that I could be getting sick. Five days before finals. Super.

I am going to be living in the computer lab for the next week. So-long social life.

Its ok though.

I am going to study.

And kick ass on my finals.

And write my long ass final paper.

And all will be well.

And then it will be winter break and I will be home in Ventura with the beach and the sun and my beautiful friends and family that I miss so so much!

no one could ever go wrong with choosing dave matthews as their studying music.