nineteen.

Last year of teenage.

I dont want to grow up.

This past weekend:

PROS

Birthday. Lots of fun.

Sam and Dallas came to visit.

Spent time with my lovaaassss.

CONS

Smoked too many cigarettes. [maybe not a bad thing]

Spreading myself thin.

I now have a LARGE compilation of homework assignments...due tomorrow.

I feel like my life is moving in a downward spiral.

And so are the lives of the people around me.

Cigarettes and green tea save our lives.

I guess it could be worse.

Plan B.

Spring Break:

Beach house in Lincoln City [Oregon Coast]

Good friends

Coronas and limes

4 days and 3 nights of memories to be made

Time is contagious.

"You can wait for ages,

Watch your compost turn to coal.

But time is contagious,

And everybody's getting old."

-Damien Rice, Coconut Skins

I just want to live in this moment. In this day.

And not think about tomorrow.

And never think about yesterday.

Feelin' Good

Woke up

Did homework

Worked out

Class

Work

Homework

Can you say PRODUCTIVE.

Hell yes, this is what I like to be.

Also, enjoyed the sun for a bit today. Listened to some Jack Johnson.

SUMMERSUMMERSUMMERSUMMER>>come faster

Dallas and Sam bought their tickets yesterday to come and see me on my birthday weekend. Best birthday present EVER.

I freakin cannot wait to see my two best friends again!! Its been too long.

My hips hurt from running, and that makes me feel old.

laggin it.

I feel like I'm slacking in everything right now.

And on the days when I do feel like I could be productive, I have to go to work.

HOWEVER. I had a fun weekend with friends, and laughs.

Jungle party.

I worked a lot, but my job is definitely growing on me.

OH! And Sterling taught me how to do the booty bump, I am practically black now.

New week, lots to do.

But I would rather be busy than bored.

too much.

Just so overwhelmed right now.

5:45 AM shifts at the WORST job EVER.

8:00-3:30 classes.

18 credits worth of homework.

Social life.

I cant handle it.

Im too exhausted.

And going through too many lattes a day.

Too bad it's only been 2 days.

"And honey all the movements you're starting to make

See me crumble and fall on my face

And I know the mistakes that I made

See it all disappear without a trace

And they call as they beckon you on

They say start as you mean to go on,

As you mean to go on."

-Coldplay "Rush of Blood to the Head"

It would be nice

To like you.

I think.

New job. Officially a member of the MJCC. [[JEWTOPIA]]

New week. Kill me now. 5:45 AM shifts...ohhh yay.

Dear John.

So in love with this right now.

"And the things that keep us apart
Keep me alive
And the things that keep me alive
Keep me alone
This is the thing"

Thoughts.

I wonder if birds know that we envy them?

These Days.

Chipotle with these girls makes for the best of times.

Seriously laughed till I cried...like 7 times.

School is getting better. Almost halfway done with the term...whattt? Time flies.

Just loving life. Good friends, good laughs, good times. Not too much to complain about.

mondaze.

Mondays will always kill me.

Piled on stress.

Only the beginning.

Exhaustion.

But I shouldn't complain. Because my weekend starts a day earlier than everyone else's.

But still.

Anddd, must it always rain on mondays?